Syahston

The end of my BMTC

2009-12-05T10:02:00.000-08:00

Three whole months have finally arrived. To think of it, time do passes fast without us realising. it was like three months ago, September 11th (11 09 09), when i had entered Tekong with nothing much in my mind as blank as a white wall. Everything were new to me. Regimentation and respects are a prior to the Army. Punishments were always a common routine in the army. From push-up change to crunches change. Aching body parts were normal to us and pain is not an excuse. AVIVA is crucial to us that would save not us, but our family needs one day. My first few weeks to me, "Army is a sadistic place to be, its either you live thru it or you die of it."

Now, my Passing Out Parade (POP) is drawing near. 09 12 09 the day i'll be out of Tekong BMTC life. However, emotions will not be spare. Hardship, endurance, support, encouragement are the keys to survive this course. Most important the buddy that will stick with you thru out the days is someone you will never forget. Thank you, Hsyen Li.

To all my Section mates, I love you guys dearly.. like seriously!! (bimbotic moments)
To my Platoon mates, Take great care guys. you guys will stay in my heart.
To my Coy mates, Great knowing you people around.
To my SGTS, I will really miss you.
To my PC, suck to be YOU!!
To my OC, YOU ARE THE BEST!! God bless!

I had given my best and all from IPPT to SOC, from live range to live grenade. Improvement is inevitable. Each steps come a long way. Range and grenade were to few i hated most but i seem to love it thereafter. With the encouragement from my OC to my PC and my sgts, i had make such great progression and determination thru out these months. I am proudly lift my head high and say " Good job Syahid, you made it."

24km route march is left for now. Pray for my safety and pray me back home. I know this gonna be hard and tough but i must still go thru it. I am a Man.

The 7 core values are:
Loyalty to country
Leadership
Discipline
Proffessionism
Fighting Spirits
Ethic
Care for Soldiers

Caught in a Bad Romance.. Ggagaa!!

2009-11-27T09:46:00.000-08:00

This is one of my most inspiring and favourite best video and music done by her. Love it! Look at those heels can?! Alexander Mcqueen for your INFO! Costumes, hair and makeup are fcking GORGEOUS! and I WANT THOSE WIRE-MESH NAILS!!! Go Ggagaa!!

Btw, i shall dedicate this song to him. Yes. Its such a bad romance scene. Sigh.

"Rah rah, rah ah ah!!
Roma, roma mah!!
Gaga, ooh la lah!!
Want your bad romance!"

Back From Tekong!

2009-10-15T11:17:00.000-07:00

OMG~! it had been awhile since i touch the net. Finally, i have some spare time to bitch here. It had been a month since i went MIA. MIA in Tekong for your information. Yes. I am a NS man. Can you fcking believe this? Me and army? haha! Guess what? IT HAPPENED! hahaha!

Okays. Firstly i would want to say my greatfulness that i am in SG, secondly army sucks. LOL! oh wait, LOR! (Laugh Out Retardly) This week my coy had a company day off so it was an early book out. Adding on, my live-range is on this coming Sunday. Bloody fck.. i'm so gonna freak out! My 5weeks in Tekong was amazing yet frustrating at time. I feel like i am surrounded by war and guns. Fck. However, i need to defend this nation. This country. My family.

My platoon mates have been great companions thru out my days in Tekong. From bad to worst, we suffer together and all the encouragement were like pillars to hold on. Endurance is the key to survive.

Wednesday Wept

2009-08-26T08:45:00.000-07:00

Today is a Wednesday. 26 August 2009. Tomorrow i'll be starting my event job for 13 days before my enlistment which left me with 16 days. 2 weeks plus to doom period of my strange life. I feel anxious yet fear altogether like being on the limelight with Nathan Hartono! 16 days!! Oh my GOSH! Tomorrow is the media preview for the Career kids Fair event i working for. There are quite a number of coordinators working this time and it's a messiful spread on the attrium ceramic. There are 7 different job scope booths. I am in-change of the photography/modelling booth. I'll be structing the kids on the runway and poses on the way. There is a small short runway platform with proffesional lighting and camera. I'll be working with a photographer from STUDIOZINC and a make-up artist! Goodness cool! The other booths are perfumery, pilot, ship captain, forensic, animal trainer & animator. Damn cool =)

Ok, i wanna sleep snd destress my mind over this NS shit and sort. So annoying. I think men are dumb!

Yiruma - Love me

2009-08-21T10:58:00.000-07:00

Frozen

2009-08-21T10:45:00.000-07:00

It's dangerous.
Everywhere, so dark.
The heart has frozen over.
Not a soul.
I'm running. Far away.
Leaving little lines,
Cutting out little lines.
Splitting.
There's something moving under,
Moving through,
Trying to get my heart.

Frozen.

Something,
someone
help me.

Butter.FLEED 21st

2009-08-20T10:36:00.000-07:00

Joyeux Anniversaire

Syahirah Salim

"HUGS"

On our journey to Sya's place for

DINNER..!

Good Nights SYA,

hope you had a great day
& the 21st's year ahead!

Dedicated to SYA! Happy Birthday!

2009-08-16T11:44:00.000-07:00

let's have some gum, this beat is it!
I wanna say HI 5 with your crazy hits..

Peanut wanna kiss you
but if He do then He might miss you, Sya (huh!)
Mallory's complicated and airhead (huh)
got His ass squeezed by sexy Syahid (haha!)
guess he wants to play, wants to play
a love game, a love game (huh)

"hold me and love me
just want touch you for a minute
maybe three seconds is enough
for my heart to quit it" (Sya says)

let's have some gum, this beat is it!
I wanna say HI 5 with your crazy hits
don't think too much, that busts are BIG
I wanna say HI 5 with your crazy SHIT!

let's play a lovegame, play a JEFF-game
do you want love, or you want Jane?! (LEEJane)
She is SO LAME (haha!)
What a lovegame?!! (OMG!)

(huh?)

Sue's got a mission
and it involves some heavy dancing, yeah

He's indicated His interest (to Sya)

I'm educated in sex, yes
and now I want it 'shucks', want it 'shucks'
FUCK me hard, Fuck me hard

"hold me and love me
just want touch you for a minute
maybe three seconds is enough
for my heart to quit it" (Peanut/Him/He says)

(huh?)

Peanut can see you staring there from across the block
with a smile on your mouth and your hand on HEART!
the story of THEM, it always starts the same
with a boy and a girl and a (SYAH!!) and a game
and a game (huh!!!!)

What a lovegame?!
Happy Birth-dame!

Veronicas.. Forever with you

2009-08-16T11:42:00.000-07:00

Here I am, so whatcha gonna do?
Do I gotta spell it out for you?
I can see that you got other plans for tonight
But I don't really care

Size me up you know I beat the best
Tick tock no time to rest
Let them say what they're gonna say
But tonight, I just don't really care

Come on Boy we ain't gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do
You know I wanna be together
And I wanna spend the night with you
Yeah, yeah (with you)
Yeah, yeah
Come with me tonight
We could make the night last 4ever

I've seen it all I've got nothing to prove
Come on Boy just make your move
Follow me let's leave it all behind tonight
Like we just don't care

Let me take you on the ride of your life
That's what I said all right
They can say what they wanna say
Cause tonight, I just don't even care

Let's pretend you're mine

You got what I like

Oh come on
Just one taste and you'll want more
So tell me what you're waiting for

I hate MEN

2009-08-12T09:30:00.000-07:00

I left with a month before ARMY will be calling for me and it's time for dear me to join the force and protect the nation. Oh God! How weird can this get? Really. Am I ready for this? To be a MAN? Believe it. It's time for little me to grow up into a MAN! From a boy which i would still prefers to be call to a MAN? strange. Can someone slap me?! (Not for Peanut) That man had been slapping me ever since. Argh! I'll get you soon NUT! Once i have gain some muscle mass since i'm fat as the tree bark. Singing to 'Requiem of a Dream' is really challenging me upscale and pumped my blood faster. Fuck. Emo-ing again in all the bus journeys. The more i hear it, the more i am angry. Frust! Sadness and anger. I need some spaces and peace. Please bring me to some quiet places, hear the sound of the waves, a place to not think. Peanut did that with me. I just dont feel like thinking. I need a rest. All the problems. Argh! Can i have some love please? please. please. God please. Help me. Today, i had walked alot from Orchard Central to Suntec City with Peanut. My legs are dying and so are his. He makes me laugh. It was funny that he had no other choices. Getting his things are not easy. In you read this Sya, you should be honoured and love that 2 men are walking around in the search of the perfect gift. Your boy is sweet =)

In the bus upon meeting Peanut, i thought to myself how painful this life has been. Like the more you walk you won't feel it too soon, till it continues then you will feel the pain. Just like life. Everyday.. day by day, i am happy and cheery but day by day, can i really take it? NO.

I love to walk. I walk my life thru. The hardship and pain i bear. I dont need people as they dont walk like i do. People tends to complain, when i don't. Think before you say.

I love my friends but some had taken things for granted. Please appreciate before you lose them all.

For he whom i used to love, you are just nothing but useless to me. I hate men.

Nothing Better

2009-08-10T11:04:00.000-07:00

ehgeh uhn-jen-gah watt-dun, nuh-yeh uhl-gool-reul giyuk-heh
내게 언젠가 왔던 너의 얼굴을 기억해
mum chwuh eetdun neh-mahm eul, meebgehdoh gojangnan neh gahseum eul
멈춰있던 내맘을, 밉게도 고장난 내 가슴을
nuh-yeh hwa-nan misoga shweebgehdo yun-guh-ya
너의 환한 미소가 쉽게도 연거야

geureh geu-ruht-keh nehgah, nuh-yeh saram-ee dwen guh-ya
그래 그렇게 내가 너의 사람이 된거야
moht-natt-dun neh-choo-wuk deuree, eejen giyuk-joh-cha ahn-nah
못났던 내추억들이 이젠 기억조차 않나
nahreul kkokjahbeun sohn-ee bohm-chuh-reum tta-tteut-hehsuh
나를 꼭잡은 손이 봄처럼 따뜻해서

eejae kkoom chureum neh mahm-eun
이제 꿈처럼 내맘은
geudeh gyuh-teh, gah-mahn-hee mumchwuh-suh yo
그대 곁에 가만히 멈춰서요
han soon-gan-do kkeh-jee ah-neun "kkeut-ubbneun" kkeum-eul kkwuh yo
한순간도 깨지 않는 끝없는 꿈을 꿔요

eejae soom chuh-reum neh-gyuhtteh
이제 숨처럼 내곁에
hangsang shwee myuh, geu-ruht-keh eessuh joo myun
항상 쉬며 그렇게 있어주면
nothing better nothing better than you
nothing better nothing better than you

eejae kkoom chuh-reum neh mahm-eun
이제 꿈처럼 내맘은
geudeh (poom-eh) "gyuhteh" , gahmanhee (ahngyuheetjyoh) "mumchwuh-eet-jyo"
그대 품에 가만히 안겨있죠
hansoon gando kkeh jee ahneun kkeuttubbneun kkoom eul kkoo jyo
한순간도 깨지 않는 끝없는 꿈을 꾸죠

eejae soomchureum neh gyuhteh
이제 숨처럼 내곁에
hangsang shwee myuh, geu-ruht-keh eessuhjoo-myuh
항상 쉬며 그렇게 있어주면
nothing better nothing better than you
nothing better nothing better than you

nothing better nothing better than yoU

Dellusional

2009-08-08T11:07:00.000-07:00

Silentness of the night, I hear his breathe in subtle..
rhythmic as music to my ears. I open my eyes and I see his face close to mine,
thinking of nothing but him himself..

Dedicated to Sya & Pnut!

2009-08-08T10:33:00.000-07:00

Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's someone that will stay within me
Wherever I want to go
I will always recall her voice
Know every deeds and spores
Run down the street which brings me life
Winding through my Syahirah.

She's my Sya truly, where She went I must be
Where her dreams wait for me, where that voices always holds
She's my Sya surely, as my senses tell me
This is where She won't be alone, for this is where She knows I'm Peanut!

When there are troubles to go through
I'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in her knowledge
That Love about her heart too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done for years
Just like the street which brings me life
There'll always be Syahirah.

Some Thoughts

2009-08-06T03:18:00.000-07:00

Something i feel like saying.
I'm getting irritated and annoyed everytime i heard or came across with people who are TOO fashionista! Its very very very outraging. Can this people be more EARTHY?! Same goes with people who are TOO technologically-dependance!
Seriously, get a life.

Okay thats done.
Next, i realised how annoying gay people can get really? So what if you have the drop-dead gorgeous when your heart is as black as oil. Worthy but damaging. These people need to get a life as well. If not, Kick a bucket! Whatever.
Seriously, i knew some acquintances and random "POPULAR" gay guys and you know what? I'm disgusted but their behaviour. Materialistic-fuckers or "I'M SO FUCKING HOT" assholes. (Laughs) Sorry for that.
i still remember one time i came across a man in Maxwell. He was a hot chinese who my friends kept talking on our table. He went to order a drink after i did and his notes accidently dropped but he didn't notice it. I saw and gave him a signal and you know what the FUCKER said to me?? "No no.. thanks." Fuck him. He thinks I wanna know him. Dream on arse. You are worse than a pile of dunk. So i said to him "Hey i'm sorry but you are lack of IQ for me btw you dropped your cash" (smile)

You see. If they are too hot, they intensed to think highly of themselves. Mostly want sex.. like hello?? Desperate and horny. That how disgusting this world gets. Not only the unstrange but the normal men are likewise!
That's how i see in this little circle of joy. I think it not a "HAPPY" world but a materialistic, sad fucking little purple planet.

Man. God's creation. He gave all his love but we destroy it.
How i just wish to love.
Simple.
Just to love.
Its easy, not a difficult chore.

Tell me Tell me
Would my visions be easier.
A simple weed by a lake
yet Sunny was too far away.
Despite the odds, he believes.
He tries.
Alone and cold.
As the breezes swept thru.
With all the bads.
He is still fine.
Green and unlove,
Sunny's still here.
Almightly, unfear.

Nieces. I'm old for this.

2009-08-05T10:07:00.000-07:00

My niece's

11th Birthday Throw-over!

Siti Nur Nabilah Mohd Iqbal

My first niece..

Happy Birthday!

Venue: My sis's place in Simei

And its also my dad's 100 days.

We had the prayers in the evening and "Alhamdullilah" is done.

The Mayhem behind the "Wedding Shoot"

2009-08-02T11:18:00.000-07:00

In this photo:
Myself, Ryan Teo, Samuel Ong,

Alicia, Tiffany Wang & Claudia Linn

Ryan and his REFLECTIVE COAT!

Linn getting MARRIED!

Charlie's Angels

The Kawaii Yingjia!

i am your bride. Love me.

2009-08-02T10:55:00.000-07:00

Wedding Shoot

Spring/Summer 2008

Model: Tiffang Wang

Art Direction &

Photography by: Samuel Ong
Styling by: Syahid Isn

Bridal Gowns from Korea
Hair & Make-up: Syahid Isn
Venue: Cityhall, St Andrew Church, Parliament House

I'm just helping Sam for his shoot.

Happy Belated 20th

2009-08-02T09:53:00.000-07:00

Darling..

Dream on, I'm way prettier.

Happy 20th Birhday, Winsie!

Date: 26 July 2009

Venue: Arab St.

The actual was on 19 July but everyone were busy.

So we rescheduled to the next Saturday.

People involved: XN, Khim, Elvin, Edwin, Quincy, Winson & me!

Then we moved to Arab St, a cafe called "Next Door Cafe"

Birthday boy is mad.

Chocolate is SEX

2009-08-02T09:26:00.000-07:00

This is quite a late post.

XN bought us some goodies from Taiwan and they are quite exotic!

Strawberry Condom Chocolate

- Even the packaging looks real!

Strawberry Flavoured

Sanitary Pad Mashmellow

Sushi Chocolate

Strawberry POP chocolate

Chocolate Plaster

She said this was made by an AHMA in Taiwan.. cute right!

Steamy.Smokey.Shocked,

2009-07-29T09:58:00.000-07:00

Had this cake made with love by Khim, XN & i from

all the way in Jurong Point, The Icing Place.

It's for Winson's 20th Birthday.

Meeting him on the next day, Saturday.

AND..

upon doing such a job, you know who i saw?!

Him lah! Oh fuck.

Stunning as i were. I had no choice but to act nothing about it.

He didnt noticed as well. Maybe he couldnt recognised.

Thus, i feel so shy.

Fuck lah.

Why did i have to see him?

omg.

Fuck.

Hanyang.. Hanyang.. (sigh)

July16.09

2009-07-29T09:13:00.000-07:00

I had a Date.

I'm had a date with Christie.

This is a late post and finally i had time to blog this here.

We catch a movie "Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince"

and it was B O R I N G !

After which we had our dinner at Jessie's Restaurant in Boat Quay.

We had Thai food!

haha!

She loves it too but too much coconut milk, in the ice tea and tom kha!
But nice lah (smiles)

There were still some spare times and we decided to have cakes at Coffee Bean, Millenia Walk.
We chat and laughed.

Time to go home.

Pissed

2009-07-27T01:46:00.000-07:00

Idiot. I cant post photos. Blogspot got problem! aahhh~!

Get-Away Reunion

2009-07-21T09:25:00.000-07:00

Pulai Springs Resort

Venue: Skudai, Kota Tinggi

Family Reunion Holidays Relaxation Get Away!

Reunion Dinner @ Putri Pacific Hotel

"The Newsroom Cafe"

All-you-can-eat Buffet!

Live Band Club
in
The Resort

Next Day..

Breakfast Buffet
@
Cinta Lounge

my 3rd bro-in-law's serving of his course. OMG!

Papa-Razzi.. i'll follow you.

2009-07-12T11:13:00.000-07:00

By LadyGaga Acoustic Cover

We are the crowd,

We're c-coming out

Got my flash on it's true

Need that picture of you

It's so magical

We'd be so fantastical

Leather and jeans a watch on my wrist,

Not sure what it means,

But this photo of us

It don't have a price

Ready for those flashing lights,

Cause you know that baby i

Im your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you love me

Papa-paparazzi,

Baby there's no other superstar

You know that i'll be your

Papa-paparazzi

Promise i'll be kind,

But i won't stop until that boy is mine

Baby you'll be famous

Chase you down until you love me

Papa-paparazzi

I'll be your girl

Backstage at your show,

Velvet ropes and guitars,

Yeah cause you'll know

I'm staring between the sets

Eyeliner and cigarettes

Shadow is burnt

Yellow dance and return

My lashes are dry

But with teardrops I cry

It don't have a price

Loving you is cherry pie

'Cause you know that baby I

Im your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you love me

Papa-paparazzi,

Baby there's no other superstar

You know that i'll be yourPapa-paparazzi

Promise i'll be kind,

But i won't stop until that boy is mine

Baby you'll be famous

Chase you down until you love me

Papa-paparazzi

Dinner with Sweet

2009-07-08T10:09:00.001-07:00

Dinner @

Sharf's Fish 'n' Chips

Venue: Clarke Quay

Good fishes I must say.

Big and good!

Quite affortable.

Weird. Vinegar for??

Damn smelly lah!

BIG right?!

Next..

Haagen Daez Ice Cream

She's pretty right? (smile)

We had Brownie Explosion with Tiramisu, Midnight Brownie

& a new scoop of Cuppucino Truffles!

*blush*

Why sweet?
BeCause that is the name she called me.

You are not Alone

2009-07-08T02:15:00.001-07:00

Rest in Peace

Michael Jackson

1958 - 2009

AfterBurnt Cycling Plan-To-Food Scarvenger Hunt

2009-07-08T01:31:00.000-07:00

Beach.Ball.Burnt

2009-07-08T00:36:00.000-07:00

Sentosa

Tanjong Beach

Volleyball & Tan

Cast:

Xinning, Jolene, Miko, Hazel, Yong jie, Justin, Hanyang and I

And He is cute. (Smile)

btw..

I LOVE MY PARTY TANK!

K O R E A

Okay, abit contradicting lah but i love the colours!

I got a 20% for it =)

Xin ah.. a guy thot you are my gf.

"Visit me Today, i let you cash in"

Woman, acting cute again.

Miko. She's pretty.

(Smile)

Barbar"jolene"saur!

Hazel & I

XN, Jolene, me, Haz O Choc & Yong Jie

Miko, XN, me, Pork and Yong Jie

My pant from Zara can pee!
Amazing~

After Beaching, we went for dinner & high-tea at Esplanade.

Weird lah, we were like so beach-wear and etc and the place so dandy!

My rose-buds tea =)

XN's Berry tea

Ends.

Kranji Vege Farm Vacation

2009-07-04T09:49:00.000-07:00

Bollywood Vege Farm

Kranji Country-side

Jared had an interview with the owner of the farm and I was asked to join as well.

It was so fun!

We had lunch at the Farm restaurant.

It was a very "holiday" mood-kind of thing.

We had :-

Papaya Curry Chix

Assam Pedas Fish

Lotus Leaves Kangkong

and Brown rice

Really good food.

All grown in their farm.

The "Eco-Friendly" Toilet

- dont seem friendly at all with a sign that wrote "Do not enter, Beehive!" -

Like "hello??" then whats the use of the toilet?? -.=

This is just beside the toilet.

Its called "Mr. Pee Wee" for those who need a leak.

Girls not advised.

"The Santuary"

Swamp!

Snake's Den.. omg!

What the fuck?!

~Runnnnn~

Class in the open Jungle!

My fav. DRAGONFRUIT!

My first a counter with PITCHER Plant!

This is cute.

You need this when you are in Lasalle.

Trust me.

Love of Siam

2009-06-29T09:40:00.000-07:00

Love of Siam

a Thai love-based movie

about a boy who had feelings for a boy.

In Singapore this July!

A simple gay love story between two childhood friends turns into an epic about grief and infatuation in The Love of Siam, a seemingly unassuming drama that became a sensation in its native Thailand. The film's two heroes, Mew and Tong, meet as young boys after Mew moves into his grandmother's home and becomes Tong's neighbor. The two become inseparable good friends, but tragedy strikes Tong's family when Tong's older sister goes off on a jungle trip with her friends and goes missing. In the midst of their grief, Tong's entire family moves away, and the two eventually lose contact.

The story then jumps to six years later, as Mew (Witwisit Hiranyawongkul) has become a lead singer in a popular pop group, while Tong (Mario Maurer) is trying to maintain some kind of normalcy with his family, even as his father slowly drinks himself to death out of guilt over what happened to his daughter. One day, the two reunite on the streets, and their friendship is immediately rekindled. However, Mew seems to be showing more than just friendly feelings for Tong, who isn't too sure about how to deal with them. Meanwhile, Tong meets June (Chermarn Boonyasak), Mew's band manager, and cooks up a scheme with his protective mother to save his father's life after realizing that June looks exactly like his vanished sister. Will June convince Tong's father to pick up the pieces and rejoin his family? Will love blossom between Mew and Tong, despite the obvious social taboos?

Of course, since the film is called The Love of Siam (named after Siam Square in Bangkok, where the major events of the love story happen), a love affair is bound to happen for Mew and Tong. However, the love affair is handled in a surprisingly realistic manner, with the relationship shown in mostly ambiguous terms, rarely defining the their relationship clearly. Even though this may be due to Thai audience's resistance to gay love stories

The Love of Siam shouldn't be recognized as another gay romance film; it's simply a well-told love story related in an involving manner, and is one worth watching whether you're gay or straight.

"As long as you love, there will still be hope."

Trailer

The 1st kiss.

Eternal Summer

2009-06-25T12:31:00.000-07:00

As children, Shane was an unruly elementary student, who may have suffered from Attention Deficit Disorder. While none of the other children would allow Shane to join their groups, one student by the name Jonathan befriended Shane. From that moment they became best friends. Fast forward a decade later and now the best friends are in their last year of high school. Shane considers Jonathan his best friend, while Jonathan is coming to terms with his untold feelings he holds for Shane. A new student by the name of Carrie enters their high school. She falls for Jonathan as they take a trip together to Taipei, but of course Jonathan is in love with one person and one person only. When Jonathan makes it known that he doesnt feel for Carrie in the same way she feels for him, their romance comes to an amicable end. Shane meanwhile takes an interest in Carrie and they start a relationship that they keep secret from Jonathan.

Jonathan

"Shane, i think we should not see each other anymore.

It's not your fault.

It's my own problem.

Let's not see each other anymore.

I mean it.

There are many things you don't know."

"Umh.. I'm sorry."

Shane

"Aren't we best friends?

Why can't you tell me?"

Jonathan

"You say best friends can tell each other anything.

Fine.

Then I want to know if you'll still be my best friend after you hear my secret.

Shane,

You're not just a friend to me

I really love you."

Shane

"Wait.. I have a secret to tell you too.

I always knew you were forced by the teacher.

I always knew you didn't voluteer to be my friend.

I'm really too lonely.

Jonathan Kang,

You are really my best friend.

His Last Goodbye. I love you.

2009-06-23T12:01:00.000-07:00

@ Yahoo! Video

He is the Absolute boyfriend.

2009-06-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

I cant stop crying.

Chinese Orchestra - Shenmue

2009-06-21T07:29:00.000-07:00

Beautiful as melting ice.

When Winter turns Summer.

This life has been Overprotected

2009-06-18T23:09:00.000-07:00

Smile

2009-06-18T21:03:00.000-07:00

What am I to do if someone asked for me?

Smile.

What am I to do if someone needs me?

Smile.

What am I to do if someone crushed my heart?

Smile.

What am I to do if I cry?

Smile.

Thats all I could do.

I learnt something from all the past years, is to smile.

Smile to everything I see.

Smile to him who smiled at me.

I AM HAPPY!

2009-06-17T11:21:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, 16th June, a Tuesday,

i meet Jared after his work at Marina Sq.

Its an Australian fair.

We went for dinner at Popeye's since I HAD CRAVING FOR KFC CHICKEN BUT POPEYE WAS AROUND THE CORNER so.. (smiled)

We had retail therapy.. erm. I meant myself. Jared had to save! But its okays. Your day will come!!! woohoo~

BTW we went to NUM at Citylink to look around (around like literally.. haha!)

and I spotted the slippers that i dream to own lah!

One of my birthday list and its mine now!!!

Its a limited edition pair but i think its no longer lah since its in the store. It was 60bucks six months ago and now??

Thanks to this NUM guy who served me, gave me a 20% discount, using his card. If not i wouldn't had gotten the great deal lah!

47.90bucks! (Not that worth it for a pair of flops but WHAT THE HECK. i love it)

His name is Xu Yao. Haha.. sounded CHEENA lah. But okay i guess, sweet looking and HE GOT A DAMN DIMPLE !!!!

soooooooo CUUUUTTTEEE~

okok.. Syahidah shut -up!

Tanned, Tall, Sweet.. Not bad!

(smiled)

Yay!

One mission accomplished!

AND

THANK YOU MISS TEO HWEE KHIM

for this thoughtful belated birthday pressie!!!

weeee~ i so loving it and YOU!!

Another mission done!

The Creative Journal

2009-06-17T10:07:00.000-07:00

R U S S I A

2009-06-15T13:05:00.000-07:00

Биография Куклы

Babuska

R U S S I A

Autumn/Winter 2009

РОССИЯО

сень/Зима 2009

Model: Shakila Azhar

Photography by: Samuel Ong

Outfits & Styling by: Syahid Isn

MUA: Sha & Syah

Hair: Syahid Isn

Venue: Woodleigh

My Old Friend. He left me.

2009-06-15T02:04:00.000-07:00

My old friend, my old friend

You hurted me

I trusted you and I was wrong

It's almost as if the sky

Fell on my shoulders

It's funny cause in my mind I didn't see it coming, I didn't see it coming, I didn't see it coming, from you

Now she's gone, It snowsover my smile today

Now she's gone, and I know

she is miles away

Now she's gone in a sad way

It's a sad, sad day...

=)

2009-06-04T09:03:00.001-07:00

He smiled.

Animals Save the Planet!

2009-05-31T08:50:00.000-07:00

I happened to chance upon this series of humorous animated short films on "Saving the Planet". i dare say the animator is a genius!

LASALLE College After-Party

2009-05-28T11:11:00.000-07:00

LASALLE COLLEGE OF THE ARTS

"GRAND-OPENING"

After-Party!!

Time: 7.30pm till late

with the Ministers!

I like him =)

Just 15 minutes.. Please.

2009-05-27T11:17:00.000-07:00

~ You shouldn't put your hands around me,

You make me what to reveal my true identity. ~

Disappointed.Melancholy

2009-05-24T11:31:00.000-07:00

21st May.
The day school had an opening ceremony of the graduation showcase exhibition. There were
many students and visitors around campus, and for once school really felt like an art school. With all the crazy, weird, classy and the odds were grazing on the greeneries right in the middle. Every corners were packed and everyone of us really dressed to impress. The degree show was a hit and tears could be seen from every eyes backstage. I smiled.

I rushed down to the diploma showcase area with Nelly, preparing in our mind the crowds as our exhibition is just opposite the buffets. I greeted my classmates with their parents and friends. I glided thru to my work and it was empty. While I stood there waiting, a received a call. To my over-surprised, it was Peanut looking for me with the rest. I thought to myself, perhaps it was them? The ones that were been with me thru years of high school. No. It's not, sadly.

I watched as my classmate's parents took photos with their child and the smiles on the faces of many were grinning from ear to ear. Flowers were given, congrats were received, hugs were tight. I stood and watched still. Dazed. I asked myself "I wonder where are they?" Nelly's convo faded as I dazed upon the entrance door awaiting. No calls still. No sight of them. Sya said we should eat. I leave my space and followed suit. I grabbed a few bites whilst thinking where are they still? It was quiet nevertheless the noise made by people around. The cheers and laughters. My sides were quiet. My mum didnt came that night. She had to work.

There were no one. No one that supposed to come came to see. My heart sunken. "I hope they received my message" I thought to myself. I kept going down to my space to see but none. As I watch Alexis, friends and all gave him their wishes and another flowers were given. I smiled, covering my disappointment to others. No photos. No friends. No sights.

"When will they be coming?" I asks
as I watch the people take off. I know I have no clear answer.

All I have then were my interior friends & Peanut.
I teared as I lay on my bed. I did not even take a shot of myself with my work.

A day had passed. What was left yesterday can never be rewind.
Leave your apology aside. It's too late once again.

That was just my show. What if it's my death?
I'm sure I will still be alone.

And for that, I know why I felt empty lately.
I want to fly away. Far far away.

Ps: Thank you Peanut.

Lasalle Graduation Showcase 2009

2009-05-24T09:34:00.000-07:00

LASALLE COLLEGE OF THE ARTS

Presents

Graduation Showcase 2009

Venue: Lasalle Campus

Date: 21st May - 3rd June

Time: 10.30am - 8pm

Very nice fries from 15minutes cafe. Campus new cafe!

My showcase.

FINE ARTS SHOWCASE

Cool concept!

HUNGRY~

MORE FOOODD~

This is crazy. The Art friend's bag being weaved to form this!

maDness!

Neon!!

SANITARY PADS!!

I LOVE THIS!

That thing is bigger than sya!!

My style =)

CUTEE~!

dont waste tissue. reuse them and form an artwork!

Nights!

T.O.P

2009-05-14T10:17:00.000-07:00

Big Bang in The Coffee Prince Parody.

T.O.P is so cute.

Quoted from this script that i personally admire,

"I dont care if you are a guy or an alien, i love you."

T.O.P made my nights..

Sweet.

RITAMonster NIGHT!

2009-05-13T11:33:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th Birthday, RITA!

@ Production room, Lasalle

4th May 2009

From left Clockwise:

Adrian (Lecturer), Jeri, Mallory, Matthew,

Lionel, Vico, Christine, Myself, RITA, Linda!

Annabella.

School's OUT!!

2009-05-11T10:09:00.000-07:00

Assessment is OVER!

iT's PARTE TIME~

Gathering Dinner

@ Timbre, Substation

26th April 2009

Sex on the Beach!

This is called "Tuttu."

Elvin's 21st Birthday Moon-Tanning

2009-05-09T08:04:00.000-07:00

Elvin's 21st Birthday

by the Moon

@ Henderson Wave Bridge,

Mount Faber

5th May 2009

The first was the most funniest! Hazel Tan Mei Xia on the bike!!

Looks like a yellow frog.. haha!

The view from the brigde. Spendid!

Birthday boy smiling away.

XN act cute again.

Handy Panky!!

Jolene =)

Elvin's car

Happy Birthday!

nights.

Things that PISSES me off

2009-05-08T11:02:00.000-07:00

People who dont keep their words.
Whatever okay. Next time, dont bother call me. I cant be bother and trusted you.
There will be no next time and dont say i'm being emo. Think before you say. Thanks to who? To you!
Once a plan is confirm means it will proceed.
No excuses. I went all the trouble to even cancelled the runway show at Zouk Event for this Saturday. Dont need to apologise. I had enough.
Friends or Acquintances. You decide. Looking at this, I'm aint as important as to a friend would be than acquintance.
I shall not use any Vulgar words here. I think its worst and i feel its useless. What the heck?
Whatever.

My lollipop

2009-05-06T10:32:00.000-07:00

My boy in YELLOW! =)

A Secret..

2009-05-04T10:17:00.000-07:00

Elvin has a secret!

A Nice Style Acoustic (Run - Snow Patrol)

2009-05-04T10:14:00.000-07:00

And i think he's cute too. haha! Yayness!

Wonderboys??? WTF?!

2009-04-26T12:37:00.000-07:00

Cute boys.. but a bit gay.. (eek!)

I'm disturbed for life now.

Seungri (Big Bang)

[my cutieee!! the only one that dont look gay]

Jo Kwon (2AM)

Sungmin (Suju)

Taemin (Shinee)

Shindong (Suju)

Wondergirls - Nobody

2009-04-26T12:22:00.000-07:00

I want nobody nobody But You

난 다른 사람은 싫어 니가 아니면 싫어

I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

난 싫은데 왜 날 밀어내려고 하니 자꾸 내말은 듣지 않고

왜 이렇게 다른 남자에게 날 보내려 하니

어떻게 이러니날 위해 그렇단 그 말 넌 부족하다는 그 말 이젠 그만

해 넌 나를 알잖아 왜 원하지도 않는걸 강요해

난 좋은데 난 행복한데 너만 있으면 돼 더 바랄게 없는데

누굴 만나서 행복하란 거야 난 널 떠나서 행복할 수 없어

날 위해 그렇단 그 말 넌 부족하다는 그 말 말이 안 되

는 말이란 걸 왜 몰라 니가 없이 어떻게 행복해

I don't want nobody body body.

I don't want nobody body body

나는 정말 니가 아니면 니가 아니면 싫단 말야

아~

rap)Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free

모든게 너무나 꿈만 같았던 그때로 돌아가고 싶은데 왜 자꾸 나를 밀어내려 해

why do you push me away.

I don't want nobody nobody

Nobody nobody but you

Run with me

2009-04-26T11:56:00.000-07:00

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear

We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

National Service Calling

2009-04-26T10:36:00.000-07:00

To all my friends,

I had received my letter of enlistment today.

I'll be enlisting on the 10th of September 2009, 2pm. Paris Ris terminal.
I'll be goin to Tekong, School 2.

Sigh.. soon i'll be a grown man. Let's hope this Syahid wont change =)

Run (cover Leona Lewis) - Jakkariah

2009-04-26T10:22:00.000-07:00

I fell in love with this song, originally from Snow Patrol just a few hours ago.

There was a class gathering dinner at Timbre, Substation along with a live band!

A local band played this acoustic and it was amazing.

And i'm not drunk okay! I can still focus.. Today was a good day out regardless the crazy weather.

People attented were: (The straight men) Daniel, Ben, Matthew, Winston, Jerry and Sayang. (The not-so-innocent-girls) Nelly, Mallory, Linda and I. (Class A) Rita and Christine. (Lvl one fashion) Sunny and Hana & Matthew's guest, Jess.

A good night out, with dinner and ALCOHOL!! haha!!

OKAYS lah.. not emphazing on that but its abt the band and cute ppl around. My dearie classmates which i will miss dearly.

i had SEX on the beach and Tuttu!! lol.. cute name =)

not that bad.. Tuttu's a mixture of comfort mix with Baileys and Strawberry =)

it's been awhile since i last blog.. i'll update soon =)

after dinner, the guys wanna go sheesha and drink but nah.. im going back man.

Before that.. its DESSERT time at AH CHUU!!

Farewell Bonchik

2009-04-26T00:31:00.000-07:00

The day of my assessment was indeed the most tiring and exhausting day ever. Almost 3 days of sleepless nights to complete the collections. Its crazy. And after i reached home that day.. i was told that Bonchik had passed away. I was shocked and dazed due to the assessment just that morning. i heard that he fell off from the kitchen window and there goes his life. From a storey of tenth.. so high! omg.. sobs! wth?? i just dont understand why..

I Love You

2009-03-22T12:44:00.000-07:00

Yes. I am greatful that i could always says this to my friends and family.

But i hope i could receive such verbal remark.

I had never receive such verbal from anyone and when i said this to a person, he/she just smiled. [sighs]

Pokemon

2009-03-17T08:26:00.000-07:00

Fucking Angry

2009-03-14T10:13:00.000-07:00

I am fucking pissed and seriously its getting on my nerves.
That's the fucking last time i wanna hear such fucking arsehole attitude.
What the fuck?!
I talked you nicely and you fucking SHOUT at me. Fuck you all.
Syahid is Syahid but dont you fuck up used me as a fucking punching bag.
I aint one shit.
You fucking called me a fucking friend and thats your fucking attitude?
Fuck off Bitch.
I am patience to an extent and I fucking fine with it but fuck it shit, using those "FUCK" on me? Fuck you. I dont used crude words on you then you fucking better realise.

For now, I am FUCKING cant be bothered. Arsehole.
I ain't your dog.

(PS: and I'm sorry with those words, you pissed me off)

A Fool's Tears

2009-03-13T09:20:00.001-07:00

"It's me"

2009-03-12T09:35:00.000-07:00

It's wonderful.
Everywhere, so white.
The river has frozen over.
Not a soul on the ice.
Only me skating fast.
I'm speeding past trees,
Leaving little lines in the ice,
Cutting out little lines in the ice,
Splitting, splitting sound,
Silver heels spitting, spitting snow.

There's something moving
Under, under the ice,
Moving under ice,
Through water,
Trying to get out of the cold water.
"It's me."
Something, someone--help them.
"It's me."

Issey Miyake Spring/Summer 2008

2009-03-11T10:52:00.000-07:00

by Dai Fujiwara

MY GREATEST INSPIRATION!

Leave me go!

2009-03-11T10:40:00.000-07:00

Just let me go..
Everything had frozen including my heart.
Forget it.
I ain't gonna be nice no more.
Fuck you!

Gareth Pugh Fall Winter 2008

2009-03-10T01:25:00.000-07:00

I LOVE IT!

Am i anorexic?

2009-03-09T13:04:00.000-07:00

Sigh.
I am really falling sick. The weather really play a crucial role in our life and now the slight changes had turned our life topsy-turvy. Especially mine.
I had been coughing even before my visit for the NS medical checkup and it had worsen till today when i couldnt take it no longer. I feel fainty after trying to draft out my report about Issey Miyake and Arts and i had vomited thrice continuously at the basin like a running tap water. This aint a funny joke that i actually vomited other than drinking milk 3 yrs ago. My throat hurt badly and i guessed i'm gonna have a athsma attack as i couldnt breathe properly. My coughs are like continuously and severe. I think i might faint one of these days. Diploma Collections is in 3 weeks times and i'm feeling under the weather. Oh dear, really not enough time to rest. I need to complete my 9 toiles of the garments by 23 march and colouring figurines are gonna kill me. Lasalle sucks big time! Migraine is reacting up again.
Fuck.
I had seen the doc this morning and the doc seems stupid or something. He didnt say much just checkup and done. My medicine look similar to my mum. But i like Piomedyl cause its nice, sweet and it works lah!..
I asked for 2 days MC since today i got no school and Tuesday class begins at 9am. I know i cant wake up with this dying body of mine. So 2 days would be fine to get some good rest and touch up some works at home.
Yay!! IM DONE with my CCS report! Cheers to VOMITS! haha!
ok lah.. now is already 4:23am and i am still awake after finishing my reports. All 1,800 words done. Period. Now is VP.. fucking wae wae class. I need to eat my medicine! okays.
btw, I am not emo. I'm angry.

McQueen & Witchcraft

2009-03-03T09:12:00.000-08:00

Another lovely and amazing designer..

ALEXANDER MCQUEEN!

Seriously Breath-taking!

John Galliano for DIOR

2009-03-03T08:57:00.000-08:00

This was Christian Dior Spring Summer 2007 Haute Couture Collection by John Galliano.

Still My favourite among the rest!

Its very Japanese Inspired & look at the workmanship.. Gorgeous!

Christian Dior Haute Couture Fall Winter 2008/2009

Uniquely Fabulous!

Look at those Airplane Propanel-like Corset.. WOW!

'Luk Luk Lumbu'

2009-03-03T08:50:00.000-08:00

National University of Singapore Choir

St. Peterburg, Russia

Lovely Approach & Cute

i love it!

'Taal'

2009-03-03T08:33:00.000-08:00

i love this.

Victoria Junior College

Awarded Gold with Honour.

Beautifully executed.

R E B E L L I O U S

2009-03-01T10:27:00.000-08:00

I WANT TO BE REBELLIOUS!

stay away..

Kitty Kitty.. BOO!!

2009-03-01T10:18:00.000-08:00

Ain't he cute?
Name: BongChik [Fatso]

He makes me happy =)

Friday Night

2009-03-01T10:02:00.000-08:00

Yes yes I hang out with Quincy on a FRIDAY NIGHT!! Thats new!

Is that he can only book out on Friday night and in again on Sunday night as well.

He msged me on Tuesday and asked to meet.

He had some battery outing which i know less about what it meant but yes he was free.

I went to school to do abit of my school's work and some weird 3D approaches.

Had lunch with Nelly, Lionel, Matt and my lecturer, Adrian @ Vegetarian opp OG, had BUBBLE TEAS!! and oogled at cheap watches! haha!

OMG! Adrian had 2 cups of Bubble teas.. so fattening!

Quincy came at 6pm, picked me up in school and we left to town.

Shop abit and had a late dinner at PIZZA HUT after much thinking and due to the crowds!

We had a feast!

11pm plus, Zai came down and picked us up on his car to Boat Quay.

Wanting to go SETTLERS but in the end, we go TCC and just chill till 2plus in the morning.

Btw for your info,

I HATE THIS TYPE OF ART.

A mixture of POPart and history.. confusion and all!

Disturbing!

Can be quite racist & disrespectful

HATE IT.. i'm sorry!

Let's P L A Y!

2009-03-01T09:53:00.000-08:00

Clubbing Night!

Jazz, Dominic, D's bf, Jolene & XN

Good Nights =)

Shattered

2009-02-25T10:17:00.000-08:00

Shattered like a piece of glass.

Each lines depict each memories that hold every pieces in place.

Broken yet still intact.

Portrays the strongwill which make who i am.

Be shattered, strong and undefine.

I'll still be holding them close to my heart.

SHOCKED!

2009-02-24T09:39:00.000-08:00

23 Feb which was on Monday was my medical checkup date.

This year is the time when i'll be going in National Service (NS), so this checkup is to determine where i stand.
I woke up like SERIOUSLY 5am in the morning hoping i wont be late for the checkup.
Nicely, i reached at abt 7.55am (Laughs)

Let me explain this in sequence: -

Photo-taking with Uniform (UGLY hair lah.. thanks to that man)
Resubmit my document online with a SUPER-friendly madam who scared me off.
Queue to pass them my pink form.
Waited almost 10mins for my name to collect my file for screening.
The 1st pit stop was the Urine test. (I realised how stupid guys can be.. i'll explain later)
Next was the Blood Taking corner. (OMG!! scary needle)
Now i need to go to Hearing Aid room. (I feel stupid)
Eye Test (I AM COLOURBLIND)
The Dental Check. (Oh dear.. my poor gum!)
X-RAY. (Man! That man is so gay.. he looked at my topless body like shit!)
ECG. (Pulse checking with cute guy beside me =)
The CORK-Staring check. (Ahh..)

Finally its done. Now the IQ test. Its stupid and dumb plus i hate MATHS! WHAT the heck.. i did anyhow after some time. Its making me sleepy and lertagic. Oh ya.. why guys are stupid?? THEY DONT READ INSTRUCTION.. like what? like this built, tanned, chinese guy who went out with his urine and let the officer see.. how DUMB?! tsk tsk.. For nuts, i think i'm actually quite normal and smart.

ANNDDD!!! they was this cute guy!! His name is Jus and ahhh.. i saw his topless body.. OMG! *faint*

Ok. whatever!

And let me remind again that i AM COLOURBLIND.. but guess what??

Syahid is in PSEA B LT1.. which is similar to PSEA A

OMG..!! im FIT?!!

Kiaro Dance Company - "Circus"

2009-02-24T09:36:00.000-08:00

Seriously cool dance moves!

"As free as the butterflies.."

2009-02-21T11:49:00.000-08:00

Kesedihan

2009-02-21T11:21:00.000-08:00

Itu lah cerita ku yang amat padah.

Hatiku pedih lalu bersayu.

Angin bergaul di angkasa

tinggal lah ku sendirian.

Keropok kegemaranku hilang kemana.

Tiada siapa pun yang tahu atau ambil tahu.

Perit.

Mindaku kegelapan and hatiku tiada bernyawa.

Aku telah mencintai Dia hingga hatiku terbernam mendalaman.

Kegelapan.

Kesunyian.

Mengapakah ku bermimpi?

Walau bagaimana pun,

Dia tetap tidak akan dimiliki ku..

"Untitled"

2009-02-20T09:03:00.000-08:00

Ketika..

kurasakan sudah

ada ruang di hatiku

yang kau sentuh.

Dan ketika,

ku sadari sudah

tak selalu indah cinta yang ada.

Mungkin memang, ku yang harus mengerti

bila ku bukan yang ingin kau miliki

salahkah ku bila kau lah ada di hatiku?!

Adakah ku singgah di hatimu, mungkinkah kau rindukan adaku

adakah ku sedikit di hatimu?

Bila kah ku mengganggu harimu, mungkin kau tak inginkan adaku?

akankah ku sedikit di hatimu.

Bila memang, ku yang harus mengerti

mengapa cintamu tak dapat ku miliki?

salahkah ku bila kau lah yang di hatiku

"Kau yang ada, di hatiku"

Bila cinta kita tak kan tercipta

ku hanya sekedar ingin tuk mengerti

Adakah diriku, oh singgah di hatimu

Dan bilakah kau tau, kau yang ada di hatiku.

Kau yang ada, di hatiku

adakah ku, di hatimu

Cries***

2009-02-19T09:32:00.000-08:00

It hurts. It really is.
He said something and i dont feel nice.
And i cant seem to think better. I cant do my work.
I know i have no rights to do so but i just need a help.
Argh. My heart feels tight and i think i'm choking to what he had to said.
I think i have fallen too deep but its a little part to put this smile.
Now i dont know how to face others without this smile.
I can't stop thinking about it. What he said belittle me to the extreme.
I like to disappear away from others.
It really hurts.
Really am.
Argh. I dont feel good.
Heartache.

A Day in Lasalle

2009-02-15T12:02:00.000-08:00

Spy @ Lasalle

2009-02-15T11:46:00.000-08:00

Nat!!

This was a random shot by Lionel during Adrian's class =)

Dan!!
Love the sarong!

Androgynous Uniform!

by me

Uni. 1
a tube dress outfit using a shirt top of the school uniform.

Uni. 2

Toga top using the school's skirt

& the top as a high-waisted draped skirt.

Uni. 3

Uniform top as a cowl-collar cropped short jacket

& School's skirt as tube flared dress inside.

Uniquely me!