Fated?

8th July 07

Sunday, 2:54AM

To my surprise, 7th July which happened yesterdae night was too unexpected to be true. I am still thinking of the night of pure dream and that finally it came true. Not really what i hoped for but it was the night of just being together.

Some toilet luck really! Unknowingly, God was being sweet to me. I appreciated every moments, every minutes and till the last seconds of it, Thank you dearest God! Thus, What does this shows? Would you please enlighten me? I do not know what to say. Nonetheless, I was dumb-founded. Could all the signs be a hidden agendas to me? Hence, I would still love that night.

I cherished that night like what i was thinking of in the bus this morning. For only just once in every blue moon, if I could meet my 'Dearest' i would be thankful God, and to my astonishment, I got to see him and spent a night chatting. I felt so closed and noticed. Call me an idiot or stupid but NO words or insults would irritates me now. Warm blood runs thru my veins and hold my heart in place, calming my beat to beat rymthm. You smiled so much with gave me a wonderful feeling and gladly i met you in my life. In every ways, how could not a girl fond of you? IMPOSSIBLE! You are so close to me but a barrier distanced our stand. But the fact is you have someone in your life who you dear with your simple world. You are simple to the extent that I am falling for you again and again. Time to time. Am i a loser? Knowing about you give me peaceful dreams. I could not forget Him in any wae.

Love is a strong word thus, i don't really care! Being close is like a gift to me. Am i the only one that would appreciate everything in my life?

Please tell me something! You gladlywould end your work at 10:30PM just for me and would join me for coffee. I am hating you for being so sweet. Those words you said brings tears to my eyes in a positive wae. Please don't say you are so forgetful. I believe that you are just too tired and take tour time to recall. Finally you remembered! YEAH! He thanked me for helping however, this could be the only options that I could do to help. But would you help me too? Impossiblely NO.

He sat infront of me at MAC, admiring Him from his slicked hair to his long neck. (lol!) His eyes were sparkling with confident looking back at me. He laughed back at what I said and making stupid faces just to react with me. We both actually had the same $50 notes while intending to pay for our drinks. Fast as I am, I paid first. Haha! Forgotten the ring that He sold, He was stressing out which made me worried. =( I played with his PSP games about break-dancing

(B-Boy) and I managed to make the virtual guy do a head spin! Wee~~! Most of it, He taught me =) Foolish me! He helped me carry my shopping bag and I was holding my heart tight. I really cherished Him alot. Showing me His vintage shades which cost $50! I freaked out. Since He likes it, its ok. haha! =)

Spiritually with you,

Syah-Ston

I hold your knife in my heart =)