13th Day of Pokemon and Him (Quincy's Birthday)

It was rainning this morning and the weather was damn cold and freezing~

The shows were as usual getting boring and tired of the same old routines and dance steps. He was there but we seldom talk recently. I hate you though for not being Himself and I guessed He is still thinking about the incident. WHATEVER LAH!

Today was one of my best & closest friend birthday. Now he is 20th and needs to grow up. Well, grow up in which of height?! (Laugh)

Just kidding man! Quincy, I love you!

Thank you for the treats =)

Athough it make us high and drunk, thats normally what we are!

May your future will be bright and shiny like my Swarovski crystals!!

HEY BTW PEOPLE!! I seriously didn't flirt with the New Urban Male guy at Heeren!!!

He's name is Jimmy and I was just asking him whether I could get discount for the flops that Quincy bought so that he would pay less. Seriously lah.. He sounded cute and funny lah but I was not flirting lah! Stupid you, ELVIN!! Stop smiling at me about Jimmy can?! I was just being nice. But silly boy lah Jimmy! I asked whether I could get. He replied that if we are from NP, RP or TP could get a discount so I said back "what if I'm not but from another school? Could you give me?" He was thinking hard but I felt embarrassed and bad lah! He is new and He could not give me cause He don't know how =) Silly boy!

Quincy's Birthday Treats @ Cenele, Raffles

Foret Noire (Black Forest)

Choc Chip

Violet Meringue, Caraibe & Chocolat Classique

This is the MERINGUE!!

SWEEET!!

Quincy acting cute and innocent on his Birthday!

*Smile*

Me, Myself & Mr Crepe

NoraSyikeen getting prepared to attack Mr Choc Chip Crepe!

AMBUSH!!

Quincy went abit TOO high and drunk over Chocolate =)

Happy 20th Birthday,

Quincy!

Supper celebration @ Yassin

"To All You VIRGINS

Thanks For Nothing!"

Nasi Briyani & Syrup Limau!

Nice!!

The MEN!

Final Portrait

Winson Phua, Elvin Quek, Syahston Syah, Quincy T. & XN

12th Day of Pokemon and Him ( Friday Feast)

Today we have three bloody sweaty shows to perform and I am so dying, dead! I didn't eat much though. Btw Keith finally managed to do the 'Baby Freeze' after many tries and determination. He did both 'Baby Freeze' and another freeze which I can't seem to recall its name. Haha! Funny =)

Beginning Of a New Life

After having dinner with them, I went home but I couldn't go online as my brother was using the computer to do his schedule for work and because of that I was guttonying myself with my mum's chicken drumsticks, 2 slices of Pizza's Hut Seafood Delight, a HUGE chicken pie from Hanis Cafe and assorted DONUTS!! OMG~!! Sinful =(

11th Day of Pokemon and Him

I was so damn tired this morning. I went back home like around 4am just a few hours ago. OMG~! Tired tired tired.. sleepy.
He was wearing white and I saw this guy going to the Gent and I was like thinking of Him. Guess what? Its Him. This is crazy! I went back and sleep till the show about to start. After show we went to Carrefour to buy this Honey Chicken with white rice and He was there too but He will be leaving off to school to do some errants. As you guys already knows, He have to repeat for failling a module and He needs to get a deferrance letter from school since He is going in soon like next week friday. I don't wish to see Him, now not in school again! We will be in the same batch!! Fuck.


Now I know something and firstly I wanna apologise to Elvin but like I told you "Up to you."
If you going off with that BITCH just because Winston is clinging on you as He don't wish to get the wrong idea with her. You could actually say to her NO but since if you guys not gonna do anything.. Whatever seriously. So because of that, you leave me lah. That BITCH there, I won't be there for sure! You decide Elvin. Winston listens to you anyway and He is also too easy taken in.

Supper @ Yassin


Couple in Progress

Smoking Kills His Brain

10th Day of Pokemon and Him ( Ladies Night @ M.O.S)

I felt silly on this day. I was somehow happy, sad and angry at the same time. Lets move on to after the whole pokemon shows. HAPPY! Bitch IS BEING TRANSFER TO TAKA JOHN LITTLE!!! wee!! But fuck it boy! I don't bother much although I still had that feeling within myself. You hurts my feeling deeply and my heart is dead thanks to your fucking words.

Dinner @ Coffee Club

Joel & I

Strawberry Passion Tea Freeze Blend

M.O.S @ Clarke Quay

Aahhh!! I was grainded by a Chinese guy and a few Ah Mos guys!! FUCK!

(Traumatized)

Cranberry Vodka & Some Fruit Punch

I'm so losing my mind! (Angry with Him)

XN & Jolene

Posey Babes!

The Dance Floor.. Groovy!

Giddy and Hott!

I'm gonna sleep and forget everything of you

Fin

Could This Be Love

I love him =)
Je t'aimeee!
Tu chantes tres bien
et tu es tres beau!

Am I Such a Fool?

It's 4 o' clock in the morning and I didn't sleep all night

Been laying here reminiscin' cuhz you are on my mind

Thinkin bout the times we shared and how much it meant

For you to open up your heart And let my feelings in

You smile at me thinking that We were meant to be

I wanted to smile but you were just hurting me

But love didn't last too long

Because now you're up and gone

-

So let it go, tonight

It wasn't love but just a lie

So let it go, tonight. Tonight

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I never thought that you would leave me

How could I be such a fool

So here I am wanting to be free

But I'm still in love with you

Help me get over you

Baby, I didn't want to fall in love

Lately, It's been driving me crazy

Baby, baby.You still and always will be my baby.

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Its 10 o' clock in the morning and I passed you in the hall

Been wonderin why I ever felt anything for you at all

Caught me by surprise when you didn't say whussup

An attitude why be so rude I don't know what to do

We used to be so close but somehow we fade apart

Things changed the moment that I gave you my heart

Why'd you have to walk away

Is my love the one to blame?

-

So let it go, I'll try

I needa move on and say goodbye

So let it go, just try. I'll try

-

By. Syahston

9th Day of Pokemon and Him (The Bitch)

Oh gosh! I thot I was going to be late but I'm not. In fact I was early. No one was there except that bastard and Elvin. I was quiet and in my own world still but I can't help it. I felt sadness and it hurts everytime I see Him.

Today I switched off my phone. Just wanting to be alone. I'm sorry XN that you could not reached me. I was alone everytime I'm there. I thot I would not but no I was wrong. Even Elvin is not with me. He was busy with Him and a BITCH that work in John Little. Although you are little miss sunshine but FUCK YOU!! You irritated me. I seriously think she likes Him and WTF?! Perhaps I was jealous but FUCK YOU!! "He have a Girl friend" WAIT!! FUCK HIM TOO!! "You are the same too Winston!" I thot you have a Girl friend but BOTH you and her looks so close. I WILL FUCKING HATE YOU IF YOU WOULD GO WITH HER!? I guessed you are not who I think you are! THAT BITCH WAS LIKE TOUCHING, FEEDING AND HITTING HIM!! ARSEHOLE!!

Well Elvin I thot I have you but I think I'm wrong. Thank you but I feel like you are not even there. You are alwaes with Him and that BITCH. Sorry again. I just got to say this. You tell me you are helping me but all I need is just someone to talk to. I gave up on Him and FUCK Him!! I think being or not that He and I are friends does not make any different. He is the same like other guys that I know. It really hurts alot. I felt like stepping up on the heavy road and get knock down but I think Its just stupid. "YOU have a Girl friend please lah! Why are you sticking to that BITCH?! Trying to ask me go Sentosa on Saturday so He would go.. FUCK YOU!!

I don't seem to find anything funny today. I looked dead and I was all by myself today. Elvin was with Him and that BITCH. The rest went Carrefour. I just bought a cup noodles and eat by myself backstage. No one was there. I went to Esplanade, seated at a corner alone thinking and thinking. It was really cold.

Winson why didn't you work with me? I REALISED THAT I SHOULD NOT EVEN TELL NORA TO HELP ME FIND A SLOT FOR WINSTON!! if this didn't happened, evrything would still be the same.

Surprisingly, He talked to me. He told me that He might be repeating His module and we will be in the same batch. OH DEAR..! Why? I thot you would go but you still here with me. He smiles and asked me whether I want to eat Gelare but I didn't have to mood. However, at night we did went but crowded so instead we have cup noodles again at Esplanade. I'm gonna drop hair I tell you! And ya.. The BITCH was there too. She sat beside Him and fed Him cup corn and after He changed His seat and sat infront of me. (AHHH!! I don't feel good. So much of anger, I still find Him sweet) He waited for me when I was walking at the back but FUCK!! I was forced to drop that idea.

You know what Winston?

WHATEVER!!

I hope whatever you do, does not concern me!

(Sigh! *cries*)

PS: BITCH! FUCK OFF YOU IRRITATING ASREHOLE!! SLUT! Mother Fucker!

A Couple to Admire

I woke up by the sound of my ring tone that trebles thru my ears. Kevin called me but I was too sleepy that I just went back to sleep. Supposely I need to be at Pasir Ris by noon but it was cancelled last night due to some minor problems.

A couple which I admire alot is quite close to me. I feel really happy around them. A look at their photos at Friendster and during the Sentosa Chalet make me teary but somewhat I'm happy to see it thru. If love is that simple, why am I crying?

They are so sweet and simple. Seriously is it so simple to begin with?

I love Sya and Peanut! They are the perfect couple I see only.

Although whatever it is, Peanut you still have Sya. I understand your situation but Sya is always there for you =)

You have me and Jeff too. Well, my period is still unstable right now but I'm fine. Really. It do hurts but I let God decide.

I had only His thoughts in my mind right now. I can't eat right. I can't sleep well. I feel giddy and yesterday I felt like puking.

My stomach hurts yesterday and today it started up again at home. I only had a meal yesterday and as well as today. Don't feel well. I guessed I'm falling sick.

Butterfly and Peanut. Thank you!

Jeff. Thank you!

Quincy I read your blog. Thank you =) Its funny.

Huu - Such a Fool ( George Nozuka )

OMG~! I found this guy singing George Nozuka's Such a Fool and he really have a beautiful vocal and I love the way he sing. Its almost like the real singer but more sentimental and sweet =)
This song brings a meaning that I want to convey to Him.

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4 O'clock In The Morning, I'm Chilling With Some Friends
Before The Club We're Hangin Out Until This Girl Walked In
Come On By Surprise Her When She Didn?T Say Hello
Had An Attitude, Why Be So Rude I Know Just What To Do
Wanna Go Outside I Pull Out And Came Running
Told The Girl Dont Act This Way
I See Right Through Your Act
What He Did Was Such A Shame
Dont Be Living With This Man

So Let It Go Tonight
I See The Beauty Within Your Eyes
So Let It Go Tonight

I Never Thought That It Would Be Me
How Could I Be Such A Fool Oooh
And Here I Am Saying Girl Im Sorry
For Something I Didnt Do, This Is My Point Of View
Baby I Never Meant To Fall For Her
Lately Its Been Driving Me Crazy
Baby Baby, You Still And Always Will Be My Baby

Its 4 O'clock In The Morning And It Didn?T Take Too Long
For The Girl To Change Her Tune And Now Shes Singin A Different Song
She's All Up On Me, Kissing On Me, Grabbing On Me
Whats A Guy To When His Brain Is All Muted
So Let It Go Tonight
I See The Beauty Within Your Eyes
So Let It Go Tonight

I Never Thought That It Would Be Me
How Could I Be Such A Fool Oooh
And Here I Am Saying Girl Im Sorry
For Something I Didnt Do, This Is My Point Of View
Baby Never Meant To Fall For Her
Lately Its Been Driving Me Crazy
Baby Baby, You Still And Always Will Be My Baby

Him Breaking and it Hurts

Silly Him

8th Day of Pokemon and Him (Hurt and Anger)

I could not open my eyes and my body just would not want to move. I am tired from the exhausting pokemon shows and thinking about Him. I slept late last night blogging and being bold enough to talk with term with Him online. It ain't easy and although it really tough to confess the feeling I had for two years then.

I reached backstage and soon after He arrived a minute later. He didn't talk to me at all and so I avoided Him too. I am angry and dissappointed in Him. He didn't kept His promise to me. However doing the shows, He kept giving me kids during the photoshoot. I just felt that He is still okay. Elvin told me that He was abit weird today. He didn't talk much and kept going for smoking break. "Please don't ruin yourself with nicotine. I know you are stress over your girlfriend and now knowing the truth about me but I seriously think you are just a coward and really naive. Can't you just solve your problems? You know what?" -Whatever-

"I actually put so much effort just by saying 'Hi!' to you when you were with Elvin but what did I get? NOTHING! That's not all. You didn't even say 'Bye' when you left. When you said to me to drop the idea and feeling, I feel so hurt by your words. I feel like I am being forced to stop loving you. I feel so pathetic! The more I think about it, the more I fell for you but I hate you as well!

Seriously FUCK YOU HAIKAL!! Because of your fucked up MOUTH!! I feel like punching him now.

Todae Winson came and thank you, I have a friend. All this while in these production I have no friends, no one to trust. Eventhough I believe I have Him, He is just nothing now. He is just like the rest. I only have Elvin here and sometime I'm just alone. Without Winson there, I might be eating alone. XN, Quincy and Joel came too. So nice of them. Thank you. However, things can never changed. Winson said if he really did not hold back, he would have punch Him and also said "He is not worth your tears."

After the last show, I get changed and just left the backstage to meet my friends. I just said my goodbye to Sharon and I disappeared. Elvin said he is joining them for smoke and later he will meet me. I was at Mac with X, Quincy and Joel while Winson left with his girlfriend a while ago. We waiting for Elvin and when I was day dreaming I saw Him passing by. They decided to eat at Mac as we are leaving. He smiled at me. Elvin is eating with them too and we guys left. He asked me whether I want to eat but I simplely smile back and said "its ok." And He waved goodbye and I left. Its so funny that He sometime this and that. Elvin did told me that He still feel weird. Well, I can't do anything, can I?

With all the thanks and also smiles you gave me, I just feel like avoiding you since you did it first to me. I'll been punching Elvin's arm and I feel bad about it. Sorry. Other than that, I had punched the wall continuously. Its hurts badly but I am numbed to it. I feel so frustrated! Why things are getting complicating?! FUCK YOU HAIKAL!!!

'Why can't He understand me?'

Naturalistic in the Moment

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