Should I give up?

I really dont know what to do.

When i made up my mind, He still haunts me time and again.

Should i give up?

Should i just chase the pavement?

A glimpse of him brighten the moment.

or is this just a waste?

its so empy still ..

What show??

SITEX SHOW 2008 @ SINGAPORE EXPO

This is called boredom while on the journey to Expo.

Hazel aka Poddle-bo & myself aka Shuai ge =)

XN being sandwiched in between..



Johnathan digging nose.. eeeww!
But he's hot!
Nice bod! =)

Let it be

Something are meant to be left alone.
Something are meant to be seen.
Something are meant to be admired.
Something should not be touch.
Something are just the way it will be.

Like a red grape.
Smooth and tempting.
Red-ish sinful and small.
The taste?
Sour to sweet.
Just the way i like it.
Sweet?
Nothing is sweet in this world.
A sweet voice from him is death to my ears now.

I dont believe in him no more.
Fake + Lies

Hibernation Period

OH MY LORD!
my assessment is over for now. No more sewing, no more drawing, no buying of wasteful papers and etc especially no more EXPENSIVE PRINTING.. overall i had spent $31.70 on plain A3 file folder [just the inside =( ], $20.70 on printing A3 artcard paper [black & white] okay that is considered cheap, the girl was nice. Almost $90 on my garment itself! Sketchbook that worth to a pair of nike shoes. Research file with the content which could allow me to buy a CK keychain.
ETC.

My dear body.. I'd been eating LARGE amount of junk intakes.. CHINCHOWS, BUTTERFLY BUNS, BEANCURD TARTS, CHICKEN RICES, BEEF NOODLES, VEGETARIAN RICES and especially HONEY MILK TEAS!!!!

iM SO GONNA GROW FATT WHICH INDEED I AM NOW..
i hate school but i love it.
Now im day-dreaming.. so oooooo DUNNOE WHAT TO DO..
I cant think.
Btw so sorry that i have not blog.
I had not been home since 4 days ago, doing school work in school and not sleep a wink ..
I need a long break to recover. SERIOUSLY!
I wanna faint..

My garment is not completed yet!!
argh!
My illustration sucks really.
I'm gonna die..

Really?

I'll wont be as cheerful.

Thoughts

I watched the clouds drifting away.
Seated afar away from many.
Holding my cell, awaits.
Can you forgive me for trying hard?
Your silence make me hope.

I've been lost since then.
Not a compass can save me.
Not a needle can pickle me.
My vision fails me.
My hearing pitchs me.
My world topsy-turvy.

I stoned.
I froze.
Time have stopped, perhaps.
These tears had grown.
These body is putting a stop.

Pause.
Why?

Imagining you here.
In these moments.

Thus,

And here I am left in silence.

Good news

Firstly, I will be doing a Big project for the Singapore Arts Festival on a collection for "Wearable Art" that involved the changes in time.

Example a leaf will curle and die.

The concept is Changes.
Theme: Fashion is dead, The clothes is alive!

We are collaborating with the management students of SMU to create this BIG event go WILD!
Faith - Designer/Art manager
Alice - Event Organiser

Designers:
Lasalle - Nathaniel Ng
Linda Popury
Nelly Liu
Lionel Liow
Benjamin Tsu
Ellanor
Myself =)

NUS - 2 Girls
Nafa Graduate - 1 Girl
Anglo chinese School - 1 Girl
SMU - 1 Guy

There will be model casting and fitting in December.

The runway show will be in January 14 2009
I'll let you guys know soon =)

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Secondly, Chacha had informed me about the Creative Day of Lasalle 2009 that the sponsor had agreed on the proposal. We will be having A EVEN BIGGER EVENT on March 2009. There will be a fashion school with loads of medias and VIPs. 3 designers will be spot and sponsored to do their own line of collections. OMG! This event will be held in Lasalle and I hope I know what to create =) Fill the details soons! Yay!

I wanna give up this hope

I really do.
I just feel like falling into a deep sleep and leave everything behind.
I am no longer needed.
I cant take it anymore.
You are ma
You are making me bleed.

I am NOT who i am

I will not speak again.

Fly

"I can fly without you"

Jillian, I've gave you my Heart

I Feel Blue, Annoyed & Fucked up

Jillian

Our Dream Ended Long Ago

All Our Stories

And All Our Glories

I Held So Dear

We Won't Be Together For Ever and Ever

No More Tears

I'll Always Be Here

'Till The End

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Each time the sun appear, I asked myself "Is it a new chapter?"

How long more should I wait?

How empty is it?

I dazed thru out my day and was blinded when night fall.

I sat in class today and there were no one around.

The sound of the generator creates music to the surrounding

and I cried again.

If wanting not be alone is hard to ask for,

I shall close my door.

See What I bought!

My new CK bag! Hahaha!

(Delighted)

Cost $589

=)

Isn't she pretty?!

Back to High School

Win arh!

He took this in my phone.

random..
We had dessert at the Bugis little lane

My white fungus with papaya.

And he had honey aero vera.

My fab manipulation.. hopefully can finish =(

Stupid Aaron, he took this shot.



Finally!

My hair is chopped again!

I'm used to It

"Loneliness.

it'd embled in me, in my heart.

Athough i have faith in Him but i want to touch.

Touch his hands. His face. His lips.

I want to feel. I want to share the feeling of my happiness, sadness, fear.

I want to share my portions.

I want to share a drink.

I want a smile.

I long for the word."

Do you think I'm always myself?

Do you think I'm always happy?

Do you think I'm always noisy?

Do you think I'm perfectly fine?

Let me confess.

I'm not.

Im not perfectly fine at all.

I am just putting a false smile on my face.

Being noisy all day not to think of my loneliness.

Am i Syahid that you normally see?

I cry to school.

I cry when i eat.

I cry when i drink.

I cry when i'm alone.

I cry to my sleep.

I am devastated.

Even just an illusion feel real.

Tell you a secret.

I see.

I spoke.

I smile.

I cry to him.

His my illusion.

When i walked home. He was there to accompany me.

When i was eating. He eats with me.

He laughs with me.

When i feel tired and sad. He comfort me.

He was with me in school when i was left by myself.

He sent me home.

He walked me to my door.

He is sweet.

And I hope God loves him like how he loves me.

Cute Japanese Convert to Muslim!

Abdullah his name, a Japanese lived in Germany.

Now a Muslim.

Shukur Alhamdullillah =)

Kevin Dancing =)

I still love him =)

KevJumba is Cute!

I love him =)

Korean BBOY & me

LAST FOR ONE!

KOREAN BREAKDANCING BOYS..

HOTTEST AND GROOVY!!

i love them =)

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