Caught in a Bad Romance.. Ggagaa!!

Back From Tekong!

OMG~! it had been awhile since i touch the net. Finally, i have some spare time to bitch here. It had been a month since i went MIA. MIA in Tekong for your information. Yes. I am a NS man. Can you fcking believe this? Me and army? haha! Guess what? IT HAPPENED! hahaha!

Okays. Firstly i would want to say my greatfulness that i am in SG, secondly army sucks. LOL! oh wait, LOR! (Laugh Out Retardly) This week my coy had a company day off so it was an early book out. Adding on, my live-range is on this coming Sunday. Bloody fck.. i'm so gonna freak out! My 5weeks in Tekong was amazing yet frustrating at time. I feel like i am surrounded by war and guns. Fck. However, i need to defend this nation. This country. My family.

My platoon mates have been great companions thru out my days in Tekong. From bad to worst, we suffer together and all the encouragement were like pillars to hold on. Endurance is the key to survive.

Wednesday Wept

Today is a Wednesday. 26 August 2009. Tomorrow i'll be starting my event job for 13 days before my enlistment which left me with 16 days. 2 weeks plus to doom period of my strange life. I feel anxious yet fear altogether like being on the limelight with Nathan Hartono! 16 days!! Oh my GOSH! Tomorrow is the media preview for the Career kids Fair event i working for. There are quite a number of coordinators working this time and it's a messiful spread on the attrium ceramic. There are 7 different job scope booths. I am in-change of the photography/modelling booth. I'll be structing the kids on the runway and poses on the way. There is a small short runway platform with proffesional lighting and camera. I'll be working with a photographer from STUDIOZINC and a make-up artist! Goodness cool! The other booths are perfumery, pilot, ship captain, forensic, animal trainer & animator. Damn cool =)

Ok, i wanna sleep snd destress my mind over this NS shit and sort. So annoying. I think men are dumb!

Yiruma - Love me

Frozen

It's dangerous.
Everywhere, so dark.
The heart has frozen over.
Not a soul.
I'm running. Far away.
Leaving little lines,
Cutting out little lines.
Splitting.
There's something moving under,
Moving through,
Trying to get my heart.

Frozen.

Something,
someone
help me.

Butter.FLEED 21st

Joyeux Anniversaire

Syahirah Salim

"HUGS"

On our journey to Sya's place for

DINNER..!

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Good Nights SYA,

hope you had a great day
& the 21st's year ahead!

Dedicated to SYA! Happy Birthday!

let's have some gum, this beat is it!
I wanna say HI 5 with your crazy hits..

Peanut wanna kiss you
but if He do then He might miss you, Sya (huh!)
Mallory's complicated and airhead (huh)
got His ass squeezed by sexy Syahid (haha!)
guess he wants to play, wants to play
a love game, a love game (huh)

"hold me and love me
just want touch you for a minute
maybe three seconds is enough
for my heart to quit it" (Sya says)

let's have some gum, this beat is it!
I wanna say HI 5 with your crazy hits
don't think too much, that busts are BIG
I wanna say HI 5 with your crazy SHIT!

let's play a lovegame, play a JEFF-game
do you want love, or you want Jane?! (LEEJane)
She is SO LAME (haha!)
What a lovegame?!! (OMG!)

(huh?)

Sue's got a mission
and it involves some heavy dancing, yeah

He's indicated His interest (to Sya)

I'm educated in sex, yes
and now I want it 'shucks', want it 'shucks'
FUCK me hard, Fuck me hard

"hold me and love me
just want touch you for a minute
maybe three seconds is enough
for my heart to quit it" (Peanut/Him/He says)

(huh?)

Peanut can see you staring there from across the block
with a smile on your mouth and your hand on HEART!
the story of THEM, it always starts the same
with a boy and a girl and a (SYAH!!) and a game
and a game (huh!!!!)

What a lovegame?!
Happy Birth-dame!

Veronicas.. Forever with you

Here I am, so whatcha gonna do?
Do I gotta spell it out for you?
I can see that you got other plans for tonight
But I don't really care

Size me up you know I beat the best
Tick tock no time to rest
Let them say what they're gonna say
But tonight, I just don't really care

Come on Boy we ain't gonna live 4ever
Let me show you all the things that we could do
You know I wanna be together
And I wanna spend the night with you
Yeah, yeah (with you)
Yeah, yeah
Come with me tonight
We could make the night last 4ever

I've seen it all I've got nothing to prove
Come on Boy just make your move
Follow me let's leave it all behind tonight
Like we just don't care

Let me take you on the ride of your life
That's what I said all right
They can say what they wanna say
Cause tonight, I just don't even care

Let's pretend you're mine

You got what I like

Oh come on
Just one taste and you'll want more
So tell me what you're waiting for

I hate MEN

I left with a month before ARMY will be calling for me and it's time for dear me to join the force and protect the nation. Oh God! How weird can this get? Really. Am I ready for this? To be a MAN? Believe it. It's time for little me to grow up into a MAN! From a boy which i would still prefers to be call to a MAN? strange. Can someone slap me?! (Not for Peanut) That man had been slapping me ever since. Argh! I'll get you soon NUT! Once i have gain some muscle mass since i'm fat as the tree bark. Singing to 'Requiem of a Dream' is really challenging me upscale and pumped my blood faster. Fuck. Emo-ing again in all the bus journeys. The more i hear it, the more i am angry. Frust! Sadness and anger. I need some spaces and peace. Please bring me to some quiet places, hear the sound of the waves, a place to not think. Peanut did that with me. I just dont feel like thinking. I need a rest. All the problems. Argh! Can i have some love please? please. please. God please. Help me. Today, i had walked alot from Orchard Central to Suntec City with Peanut. My legs are dying and so are his. He makes me laugh. It was funny that he had no other choices. Getting his things are not easy. In you read this Sya, you should be honoured and love that 2 men are walking around in the search of the perfect gift. Your boy is sweet =)

In the bus upon meeting Peanut, i thought to myself how painful this life has been. Like the more you walk you won't feel it too soon, till it continues then you will feel the pain. Just like life. Everyday.. day by day, i am happy and cheery but day by day, can i really take it? NO.

I love to walk. I walk my life thru. The hardship and pain i bear. I dont need people as they dont walk like i do. People tends to complain, when i don't. Think before you say.

I love my friends but some had taken things for granted. Please appreciate before you lose them all.

For he whom i used to love, you are just nothing but useless to me. I hate men.

Nothing Better

ehgeh uhn-jen-gah watt-dun, nuh-yeh uhl-gool-reul giyuk-heh
내게 언젠가 왔던 너의 얼굴을 기억해
mum chwuh eetdun neh-mahm eul, meebgehdoh gojangnan neh gahseum eul
멈춰있던 내맘을, 밉게도 고장난 내 가슴을
nuh-yeh hwa-nan misoga shweebgehdo yun-guh-ya
너의 환한 미소가 쉽게도 연거야

geureh geu-ruht-keh nehgah, nuh-yeh saram-ee dwen guh-ya
그래 그렇게 내가 너의 사람이 된거야
moht-natt-dun neh-choo-wuk deuree, eejen giyuk-joh-cha ahn-nah
못났던 내추억들이 이젠 기억조차 않나
nahreul kkokjahbeun sohn-ee bohm-chuh-reum tta-tteut-hehsuh
나를 꼭잡은 손이 봄처럼 따뜻해서

eejae kkoom chureum neh mahm-eun
이제 꿈처럼 내맘은
geudeh gyuh-teh, gah-mahn-hee mumchwuh-suh yo
그대 곁에 가만히 멈춰서요
han soon-gan-do kkeh-jee ah-neun "kkeut-ubbneun" kkeum-eul kkwuh yo
한순간도 깨지 않는 끝없는 꿈을 꿔요

eejae soom chuh-reum neh-gyuhtteh
이제 숨처럼 내곁에
hangsang shwee myuh, geu-ruht-keh eessuh joo myun
항상 쉬며 그렇게 있어주면
nothing better nothing better than you
nothing better nothing better than you

eejae kkoom chuh-reum neh mahm-eun
이제 꿈처럼 내맘은
geudeh (poom-eh) "gyuhteh" , gahmanhee (ahngyuheetjyoh) "mumchwuh-eet-jyo"
그대 품에 가만히 안겨있죠
hansoon gando kkeh jee ahneun kkeuttubbneun kkoom eul kkoo jyo
한순간도 깨지 않는 끝없는 꿈을 꾸죠

eejae soomchureum neh gyuhteh
이제 숨처럼 내곁에
hangsang shwee myuh, geu-ruht-keh eessuhjoo-myuh
항상 쉬며 그렇게 있어주면
nothing better nothing better than you
nothing better nothing better than you

nothing better nothing better than yoU

Dellusional

Silentness of the night, I hear his breathe in subtle..
rhythmic as music to my ears. I open my eyes and I see his face close to mine,
thinking of nothing but him himself..

Dedicated to Sya & Pnut!

Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's someone that will stay within me
Wherever I want to go
I will always recall her voice
Know every deeds and spores
Run down the street which brings me life
Winding through my Syahirah.


She's my Sya truly, where She went I must be
Where her dreams wait for me, where that voices always holds
She's my Sya surely, as my senses tell me
This is where She won't be alone, for this is where She knows I'm Peanut!

When there are troubles to go through
I'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in her knowledge
That Love about her heart too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done for years
Just like the street which brings me life
There'll always be Syahirah.

Some Thoughts

Something i feel like saying.
I'm getting irritated and annoyed everytime i heard or came across with people who are TOO fashionista! Its very very very outraging. Can this people be more EARTHY?! Same goes with people who are TOO technologically-dependance!
Seriously, get a life.

Okay thats done.
Next, i realised how annoying gay people can get really? So what if you have the drop-dead gorgeous when your heart is as black as oil. Worthy but damaging. These people need to get a life as well. If not, Kick a bucket! Whatever.
Seriously, i knew some acquintances and random "POPULAR" gay guys and you know what? I'm disgusted but their behaviour. Materialistic-fuckers or "I'M SO FUCKING HOT" assholes. (Laughs) Sorry for that.
i still remember one time i came across a man in Maxwell. He was a hot chinese who my friends kept talking on our table. He went to order a drink after i did and his notes accidently dropped but he didn't notice it. I saw and gave him a signal and you know what the FUCKER said to me?? "No no.. thanks." Fuck him. He thinks I wanna know him. Dream on arse. You are worse than a pile of dunk. So i said to him "Hey i'm sorry but you are lack of IQ for me btw you dropped your cash" (smile)

You see. If they are too hot, they intensed to think highly of themselves. Mostly want sex.. like hello?? Desperate and horny. That how disgusting this world gets. Not only the unstrange but the normal men are likewise!
That's how i see in this little circle of joy. I think it not a "HAPPY" world but a materialistic, sad fucking little purple planet.


Man. God's creation. He gave all his love but we destroy it.
How i just wish to love.
Simple.
Just to love.
Its easy, not a difficult chore.

Tell me Tell me
Would my visions be easier.
A simple weed by a lake
yet Sunny was too far away.
Despite the odds, he believes.
He tries.
Alone and cold.
As the breezes swept thru.
With all the bads.
He is still fine.
Green and unlove,
Sunny's still here.
Almightly, unfear.

Nieces. I'm old for this.

My niece's

11th Birthday Throw-over!

Siti Nur Nabilah Mohd Iqbal

My first niece..

Happy Birthday!

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Venue: My sis's place in Simei

And its also my dad's 100 days.

We had the prayers in the evening and "Alhamdullilah" is done.

The Mayhem behind the "Wedding Shoot"

In this photo:
Myself, Ryan Teo, Samuel Ong,

Alicia, Tiffany Wang & Claudia Linn

Ryan and his REFLECTIVE COAT!

Linn getting MARRIED!

Charlie's Angels

The Kawaii Yingjia!